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Apr. 6th, 2010

08:05 pm

These feelings won't go away....they've been knocking me sideways....I keep thinking that any moment that, time will take them away....

Feb. 20th, 2010

08:14 pm - Writer's Block: Money to burn

Say "Thanks, but no thanks." I'd much rather work for those two week and
keep that little money.

Jan. 27th, 2010

09:16 pm - Oh...my...

I think I'm falling in love. All over again :)

Current Location: My desk....sigh
Current Music: The world outside by Paloalto

Jan. 23rd, 2010

10:08 pm

About to drop the bomb! Hope it doesn't blow up in my face!

Current Location: New York
Current Mood: curiouscurious
Current Music: Bad Habits by Maxwell

Jan. 20th, 2010

08:06 pm

Sometimes it takes a change of venue to suddenly see all the changes that need to take place in your life. Luckily for me an opportunity presented itself, I felt like I had nothing to lose, so I took two airplanes, across three continents, two oceans, and god knows how many countries to find my self at the cradle of my life. I suppose that everything ends where it once began and even I am not an exception to that rule.
But now since I came back, every little thing that I've been doing wrong for the past four years is right in my vision, particularly one really large thing, which is always in the form of a devilishly handsome and disarmingly charming man........
The only difference now is that I've spent the last almost four years having a serious and loving relationship with this man, and even now as we speak, the ring he gave me is still on my finger and in my sight. This is however not the biggest thorn in my eye; the biggest thorn in my eye, is how I'm going to break the news to him, that my ambition is getting in the way........How do I tell the man that I've spent the last three years of my life with that I want to be successful more than I want him and that the feelings I once had are no longer valid......
The truth is not that it's a lack of love for him, it is a deeper understanding that we simply are not well suited for each other, and that I need and want things and feelings and validation that he will never be able to give me. It is like everything in life, it has ran it's course, but it is rather sooner than I had expected.
I do however wonder why I accepted a proposal and a ring when somewhere deep down inside of me I knew we wouldn't really get married, it was just a game and it was the next step......I am afraid that no one is going to walk away unscathed from this....

Current Location: NYC
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: I'll be waiting by Lenny Kravitz

Jan. 10th, 2010

12:08 pm - OMG!

New beginnings are especially difficult when you're on the verge of one.....

Current Location: Colombo, Sri Lanka
Current Mood: chipperchipper
Current Music: Dosed by The Red Hot Chili Peppers

11:34 am - Writer's Block: Thumbs down!

What are your least favorite book and movie genres? Are you willing to make exceptions? Do you ever feel left out of social events/discussions owing to atypical taste in movies/books?
Everyone say it with me "TWILIGHT"!

Jan. 5th, 2010

03:55 pm - Writer's Block: Crazy in Love

What crazy thing haven't I done for love...:0)

Jan. 1st, 2010

09:24 pm - Fade into you............

I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that's true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life
You go in shadows
You'll come apart and you'll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what's not there.

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew

A stranger's light comes on slowly
A stranger's heart without a home
You put your hands into your head
And then it's smiles cover your heart

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you

Current Location: Colombo, Sri Lanka
Current Music: Fade into you by Mazzy Star

10:05 am - oh the tangled webs........

When is enough, enough? And how do you know?

Current Location: Colombo, Sri Lanka
Current Mood: pensivepensive
Current Music: Fade into you by Mazzy Star

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